Empty Spaces

The sketch done of me by Radomir in Belgrade. I don't think he got the mouth right. But I was trying not to smile the whole time.

We have a natural compulsion to fill empty spaces. They can be those empty spaces inside of us that come as a result from trying to make your way in a world that doesn’t always embrace unique. In the journey of life just try to fine someone as normal as you, if not, then a whole bunch. Oh and if you love someone set them free, and if you have to stalk them, they probably were not yours in the first place.

"Do you know where you're going to?" (Mahogany, theme song)

I have been a loner all of my life.  This has been both good and bad.  I just am not a group sort of person.  Not that I don’t like being around people, because I do.  But I can only take them in certain doses and then I need to steal away to recharch.  I have never quite understood this compulsion of mine, but it is mine and therefore just fine.

"Do you like the things that life is showing you?" (song lyrics continued)

I remember bumping into a highschool acquaintance when I was at the University of Guelph.  Hugh was his name.  He said, “You were such a mystery at school.  You could hang out with any group but you didn’t belong to any.  You were just on your own.”  That was an insight because no one had put it to me that way before.

"In the arms of an angel..." (Sarah Mclachlan)

But there are repercussions to this personality trait.  For starters, a lot of time by yourself.  This results in an over exuberance when around people because you interact with them rarely.  It also means that you have an overabundance of being in your head time.  This can lead to a little bit of neurotic behaviour.  But as long as you are aware of this, that’s o.k.

"They called her Wildfire..." (Michael Murphey)

But ultimately time passes differently for a person mostly in their own company.  Thoughts and behaviour works differently.  People don’t always understand you nor should you care.  But sometimes, solitude can have its impact, so you had best like yourself, because you are spending the vast majority of your time with only yourself.

The mysterious beggar woman shuffling up and down all day shaking her tin cup for money